So Long, 2008.

New Year's Eve. Can you believe it? 2009... I remember celebrating the start of 2000!

I haven't posted in a while... which doesn't really matter because no one reads this, but I'm making it my aim in the new year to update frequently, and also to make more videos too, cos it's fun ^_^

I have mock GCSEs as soon as I get back to school, which isn't good, as I need to learn everything that I should have in the past year and a bit in the next six days. And here I am updating my blog. Typical. I also have a load of coursework to finish, that I just can't finish because I can't do it. But it is the last of the coursework I have to do now, so that's good :)

Christmas was really good, possibly the best I've had actually. I remember when I was little and I said that every year, but this year I really mean it. We didn't do anything that was particularly special, but everyone seemed happy, and there were no arguments or anything. It was great.

I got a yellow ukulele from my sister, which I am now teaching myself to play. It's a nice little instrument, but terrible to tune. It slips out of tune so easily, so anything I try to play sounds terrible. Or maybe that's just my excuse...

I have come to love Doctor Who even more recently. After finally discovering the Doctor Who Magazine, I've been hooked. My friend bought me 'The Time Traveller's Almanac' for Christmas, which basically tells me everything from the Dawn of Time to the End of the Universe (or at least, everything that is included in series 1-4). I love it. It's exactly the kinda book a Doctor Who geek needs. Plus, I now have all the soundtracks from series 1-4. I love Murray Gold's music! Oh dear... this whole paragraph is very fangirly. Ah well, I don't care. I like Doctor Who. So what?

So, now is the time for reflecting on 2008... I hate the word 'reflecting'... I don't know why... Anyway... 2008 was... ok. Stressful, but ok. I discovered my love of musical theatre, which is actually quite a weird thought. Something that has become such an important part of me, my biggest interest, and I only discovered it on 14th February this year. And it doesn't really have anything to do with the fact that that was Valentine's Day, but it's a bit of a coincidence, isn't it?

Anyway, now I am gonna go and play on Guitar Hero. We got a Wii for Christmas, and I'm ashamed to say Guitar Hero is the only thing I've played on it so far. I told myself that I wouldn't like it that much, that playing a real guitar was better, but I have become strangely addicted to it. Oh dear.

Anyway...

Happy New Year!

Sad Face.

The past week back at school after half term has been terrible. It felt more like a month than a week. Seriously. This week will be even worse though... it's my busiest week this year. I have two open days, one concert and a theatre trip. Plus three tests and three important deadlines. EEK.

And to make it all worse, I can't even walk properly. On Friday I was in Drama choreographing part of our piece. We were doing the fight/dance scene, and I must have pulled the muscles in my legs, cos now they kill. I can't even get up the stairs properly. It's silly.

I went to an Open Day for a college yesterday though, and it was really interesting, though it made me realise what a massive decision I'm gonna have to make very soon.

The Bonfire Night party I went to last night soaked me to the bone. It was cold and windy and pouring down... and I only managed to get a little bit of footage of fireworks, which is kinda the main reason I went in the first place. But at least it meant that I could appreciate the hot chocolate even more afterwards :)

Bleurgh.

The Subscriber- Hungry Monster Is No More.

When I decided that I wanted to start posting videos on YouTube, there was one thing I promised myself: I would not try to get loads of subscribers. If someone liked my video and wanted to subscribe, that's great, but I wouldn't try to recruit people or whatever. It's just fun making videos. No matter how crappy they are, I enjoy it. And it's Productive Procrastination, which is the best thing EVER.

3 videos and 7 subscribers later... and I've already broken my promise.

My amazing friend, Lucy, just sent me a personal message on YouTube telling me what her little brother thought of my videos and saying that he was gonna add me as a friend. This message was so sweet and lovely and made me happy inside, but do you know what I said back? "If he subscribes I'll give him an invisible prize." Obviously I said more that that... but that's the main part.

Now I officially hate myself even more than I did before... so I wrote him a little message saying hi and I apologised to Lucy... and I have learned a BIG lesson.

Subscribers don't matter, it's friends that count. It's friends who give you the best, most constructive feedback, and it's friends who are always there showing their support. Even if each of my 7 subscribers unsubscribed now, I'd still be happy.

Because with lovely friends like Lucy around, nothing else matters.

A Camera Rant.

What I really need now is my camera. I'm currently writing a song and I am also making a kinda music video to go with it, because I don't want it to be just me sitting with my guitar when I put it up on YouTube, like my last one. Especially since my friends teased me about how I seemed to do all the facial expressions as I was singing and I had no idea. But what I really wanna do is make a nice pretty video with all these views of English winter (when it's not raining) because I absolutely LOVE it. I don't even care about the cold, it's so lovely. So now I am sitting at my desk, watching videos when I should be tackling the mountain of work I have to do, but all I really wanna do is take some footage of the gorgeous sunset then I can see from my bedroom window. I'm especially annoyed with myself because I debated actually bringing my camera with me, but didn't in the end, and this is the second time that I've done this now.

GRRR.

Ok, rant over.

Tuesday.

Today, I am glad to report, has been the most productive day of my half term so far. About half as productive as I was hoping it to be, but at least I've done something.

Luckily, my body clock seems to be back in tune now that we have returned to GMT, so I found myself awake at my normal wake up time during short holidays- 8:30. Unfortunately, my morning was not productive: I wanted to finish both of my RE coursework essays, but I ended up playing 'Freecell' instead. I only discovered this game on Sunday, and I have become strangely addicted to it. However, the morning wasn't all bad: after my 192nd game of 'Freecell', I finally managed to complete one. Woop.

After lunch I walked up to the Library, in the hope that I would find a book that would tell me about the play I needed to write about for my English coursework, since my draft essay was so rubbish. Unfortunately, they had helpful books on every play except the one I needed, so I finished off my RE essays instead. Then I went round the shops, looking for various stuff I need for drama, but no where sells black or white face paint. It was 5 degrees and raining heavily, but I actually rather enjoyed just kinda walking around without anybody telling me where to go, what time to get back or whatever. Even though I live so close to Birmingham, I can't just walk to a bunch of shops or just a vaguely interesting place from my house, so it's nice when I'm at my Mum's to just be able to stroll down the road. Not that I enjoy shopping... Gah I just can't explain why I like it. I guess it's just independence and freedom. Or something.

After defrosting over a nice hot chocolate when I got back, I finally started to look at work experience placements again. I'm filling in an online application form for ITV, but it's taking forever. It's quite interesting though, and kinda practice for the future... having to fill in forms and stuff. That sounds weird but I'm getting kinda scared of the future now. It seems so close all of a sudden. And it seems pretty bleak. I can't even watch the news anymore cos it just depresses me. All of this stuff that I don't really understand, but I can tell is definitely not good, and it comes at a time when I need to start understanding all this stuff... bleurgh. My brain melts.

You can tell I'm not exactly in a happy mood right now, and I don't even know why. I think it's cos I'm tired. I hope that's why anyway.

On that note, I must go.

Bye Charlotte :)

Blog the First (/Fifty Seventh)

I've written loads of blogs now, but I always delete them. I really need to start doing this properly. Well, I don't need to, but I want to. It's not as if anyone reads it, but hey, I talk to myself all the time, so why not via a blog?

So what can I say?

Thing is, I always find myself writing little blog posts in my head, but I'm never around a computer, and by the time I am, it's gone forever. But then again I can't remember anything anymore.

OMGYAYNESS I got a seventh subscriber on my YouTube channel the other day, and I screamed with excitement. Is that weird? I've been really inspired to make videos recently, just for fun, but now I'm making three at a time and I don't have time to actually finish them all. And now I'm staying at my Mum's house for half term and I am cameraless. :(.

La Vie Boheme from 'Rent' is the greatest song ever for releasing anger and sadness. I love it. And I know all the words... which is a little scary cos they sing at about a million words per second. Which is the good thing about it.

Anyway I'm gonna leave this little disjointed musing now. I'll probably end up deleting it within a few months anyway :)