I am currently in the process of making my yearbook page. An A4 page with things about me and the past five years at school. It has actually got me reminiscing about the time I have spent at that school. It seems like a lifetime that I've been there now, and I guess in a way it is. I started there a completely different person than who I am today. It's as if I have been reborn. Kinda.
It's so easy to only remember the bad stuff. And as I mentioned in my blog yesterday, my brain is particularly skilled at remembering the bad times. But looking back through photos of the past few years has helped me remembered things that I had forgotten- and a time when everything was so happy and carefree. The most annoying thing about it though, is that, at the time, I had no idea how happy and carefree those times were, and I will never experience those times again. Even more annoying, I know that I will look back on my life today in two years' time and say how carefree it was then. Everything just builds up in life, and even when you feel tired and stressed out, in years to come these days will seem amazing in comparison.
So why can't I just enjoy it? These are the happiest times of my life, and yet all I really want to do is sleep and stay away from it all. It seems a shame really. I wish I could just relax, but I can't. My only fear is that, one day, when the stress is ten times worse, I will finally explode...
Yet another dull, moany blog post. Wait until the weekend. I'll be happy then :)
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