Day 9: WHY?

Why is it that late at night, whilst preparing to sleep after having wasted a whole day doing nothing, does everything suddenly become so amazing clear? I could write a blog, song, perhaps even a novel at 2 o'clock in the morning, if it weren't for the fact I was too tired to sit up. Well, that might be an exaggeration, but here's what I mean.

After turning off my computer at half midnight last night (or technically this morning if you're picky) I had a few sudden revelations. They were:

1. You go back to school on Monday.
2. You have a Music 'Terminal Task' on Tuesday which you have to write lyrics for.
3. You have a Drama essay to write for Wednesday.
4. You have four props to make for Wednesday.
5. You have 26 days until your first GCSE.
6. You have not started revising for said GCSEs.

So, of course, the panic started to set in. Of course I knew that my exams were coming soon- I mean, that thought of impending doom likes to sit in my head and taunt me constantly, but I just didn't quite realise how close they are. All of my friends have started revising. I hadn't.

Of course, at half past midnight (or most of the time for me), it's not always easy to think straight. However, the solution came to me quite quickly: make a list.

I like making lists. It helps clear and organise my thoughts. Whether I do all of the things on the list is another matter, but at least I know what I have to do. That's a start at least. So here's how last night's list looks:

1. REVISE
2. Make laptop
3. Make 'No Photography' and 'CCTV' signs and 'Email'
4. Record Song
5. Blog
6. Learn lines
7. DRAMA ESSAY!!!

I then colour coded them in order of desperation.

There is another type of list I like to make. I call it the Issue/Solution Table. It would look something like this:

ISSUE /////////////////////////////////////////////////////SOLUTION

- My Unicorn has gone on hunger /////////1. Talk to Unicorn, help him understand that you will try to
strike to protest against the unfair ////////convince the world of the correct ways to treat pixies, but
treatment of pixies in Britain's ///////////////only if he starts eating again.
make-believe worlds. /////////////////////////////2. If that fails, let him starve. He's in your mind anyway.

And so on. These are especially useful when stressed or in a 'sticky situation', or as a kind of overflow for your brain. I have a useless brain, and so I think things through outside it when it gets too full.

Anyway. Once I had made my list last night, I felt a lot better, and slept well in the knowledge that I would wake up and have a productive day.

WRONG.

Waking up was hard enough. And whilst I have started revising now (finally) it has just dawned on me how much I actually have to learn. I have 19 exams in 11 different subjects. That's a lot of stuff to learn. I'm happy to say that I have started now, but only 45 minutes of Biology. I have yet to find a revision technique that works for me, so I always find it impossible to revise. But I am going to stop complaining now. I will tidy up my bedroom instead. Clear my head. Pfft.

Finally, because I have forgotten my new little end-of-blog feature so many times, despite leaving myself a little message by my monitor here is todays' Song of the Day :

'Mrs Nerimon' - Kristina Horner
Because it makes me smile :)