Day 19: Day of Realisation

So when I woke up this morning, something totally unexpected happened.

I realised how soon exams are.

I know that I often talk about exams, and I don't really want to anymore, but I wanted to celebrate the fact that FINALLY, 16 days before my first exam, I have realised that I am about to actually have to do some work.

However, there's not much you can really do about it at six o'clock in the morning, so this called for a list to be made. You see, I also have quite a few other things going on at the moment, including my final Drama coursework performance next week, and my Music Terminal Task (I have to write a song in half an hour to get 15% of my Music GCSE mark) tomorrow. Normally, I would be stressing at this point, especially since I am out tomorrow at the theatre, which means that I will lose an entire evening of potential work time, but I'm not stressed right now. That is because today, I feel, has been rather productive.

I had a Biology mock this morning, which went terribly, which is extremely worrying considering it is the only subject I have properly revised. I then had a chemistry practical, which could potentially be part of my GCSE, which also went terribly as I had to work on my own, despite my fear of chemicals and the fact that I had no IDEA what the hell I was doing. I still don't. But I did it, and my teacher said she was proud of me :) (when I say I'm scared of chemistry practicals, I mean I literally freeze and just want to leave. I don't even want to sit and watch, but I have to. But that's another story...) However, all the rubbishness of the morning was soon forgotten, as I discovered that that was the LAST chemistry practical I EVER have to do in my LIFE. Which makes me happy.

I then had my LAST EVER P.E. lesson, which made me happy. I don't hate sport, but I just hate P.E. lessons. I won't discuss that on here though for fear of upsetting people...

The rest of the day wasn't particularly special, but this evening I have only wasted about 10 minutes of my time, which makes me VERY happy. I feel kinda relieved without all of my other websites now. It's not like I needed them, I just checked them out of habit. I would go on Facebook or twitter just to have a quick look and then end up spending ages on them. It's only Day 1 of the four websites challenge, but I think it will go well.

However, I am still in the internet habit. When I see or hear something, I have to decide what to do with this information. Some I obviously keep to myself/ tell the relavant person, but more trivial things that I have to let out of my system need a release. Some things I think might interest or are directed at my friends, so I Facebook it. There are somethings that I don't think are particularly interesting, but that I have to let out, so I Twitter it and allow it to get lost in cyberspace. Other things I want to blog about, but by the time I come to write a blog, I have forgotten them. These things get lost in the recycle bin of my mind.

I want to try to get out of this. Whilst I don't think that there is anything wrong with expressing ourselves on the internet, I don't want to get so into the habit of it that I can't break it. Already today there have been things that I have wanted to go on Facebook for, which is BAD. But I feel free. Yippee.

Anyway, tis getting late and I need my sleep. Shall talk to you tomorrow, infact, in the MORNING of tomorrow. I mean, BEFORE NOON. That must be a first.

Days of compulsory education left- 7